August 13, 2010

Desperate and freaking out.

I am now officially panicking. Next Wed is my last day at work and I'm not done my experiments.

At least I've packed up my office and so although I am sitting here amid boxes, I've managed to get that done.

This can't be a good sign that I'm still trying to collect data. Because I've spent most of my week collecting data, I haven't had a single moment to work on the manuscript.

And because my last experimental replicate failed (damn you evolution of resistance!), I'll have to come in this weekend and try and get the last little bit of data. I think it's worth pursuing but I should clearly cut my losses at some point, right?

Why can't I be one of those really organized and clever postdocs, who not only has both manuscripts submitted, but is capable of relaxing at the last few days at work.

Instead desperate and freakin' out, I found a pack of bubble gum in my desk and I put the entire pack in my mouth. I thought maybe chewing it would calm the rising anxiety but I must just look like a sheep with too much grass in her mouth.

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

I sympathize! I stayed on in my lab for about 4 months after I defended my PhD to "finish things up" and yet somehow found myself rushing around for the last 2 weeks like a mad woman! And managed to make a really cool observation that I had no way of following up. I eventually just cut my losses and enjoyed my last week. Good luck with your move!

Anonymous said...

I need to learn some secrets from those organized and clever postdocs....of late I feel like a chicken without its head, running in circles.

good luck wrapping things up and making your move.

fey said...

LMFAO. Thanks for that! I feel like you just described my future five weeks from now.

Anonymous said...

"Why can't I be one of those really organized and clever postdocs, who not only has both manuscripts submitted, but is capable of relaxing at the last few days at work."

What is this mythical beast to which you refer?

Good luck - it will be ok.

unknown said...

Thanks guys! I appreciate the support.

@AA There is a postdoc at SmallUniversity who in the span of two years has managed to write 3 manuscripts. LookALike leaves in two weeks and yet she is finishing up her fourth one. Not so a mythical beast.
But you're right it will be okay. Deep breaths.

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