I've been finding lately, well since about Friday, that everything makes me cry. On Friday, I thought I would be clever and decontaminate my pipettor by flaming the plastic tip over a bunsen burner. Now before you go and say 'what were you thinking? ' I saw VeryImportantProfessor demonstrate this to me. Yes, I did melt the base of the pipettor. I know, it's made of plastic. When it didn't work after that, I burst very unceremoniously into tears.
On Saturday I was on the phone with customer service at my wireless company and they asked me for some identifying information, which of course, I couldn't remember. So I got flustered and started crying. The poor woman on the other end - she was very sympathetic.
Today, I found contamination in plates for the third day in a row. Sheesh. I'll have a little cry on the side and maybe a couple of weeping sessions with that burger to go. Thanks.
I think that the loss of family has started to sink in...and well I'm tired of loss. I've had a lot of it in my short time here.
I feel isolated in SmallTown in the middle of nowhere. My friends are so far away and my family is being whittled down by Death. So I'm crying because I'm missing my mom, dad, and my innocence.
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oh oh oh, i'm so sorry. i know exACTLY what you mean....before my trip I cried at the drop of a hat. I cried all the time, in secret. i couldn't figure out why either, it couldn't be because of reason X Y Z, really.
in the end, i think i decided it was stress from a number of BIG factors at once, and an acute loneliness that comes with all your friends and family being far away. i can totally understand that you are going through tough times....let yourself cry, and give yourself a break. and know that the sun will break out again, sometime. just hang on until then. it's ok.
I'm sorry for your pain. Crying is cathartic. Hang in there. It won't feel this bad forever.
I'm so sorry for your loss.
and in regards to the tears. It is perfectly "normal" and what your body needs right now. Please try and just relax and go through it without feeling bad (if that is what you do, it kind of felt like it reading about the tears). I don't know what I would do if(when) it happened(s) to me. But my life changed very drastically a few years back and it was very hard and tears were a part of it.
Like PD said, give yourself a break. Maybe take a few days of and spend some time with friends and just be? In any event, I hope that you will see that the sun rises again on the other side of the rain.
take care!
I'm sorry this is late. It is hard to be going through such a hard time away from your "normal" support network. PD gave awesome advice, your body needs to express its emotions, let it. Hugs, lots of them.
Thank you. I am planning on taking a few days away.
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